Slow turning

Things I hate.

• Not being able to fall asleep.
• Not being able to fall asleep due to the neighbors high music.
• Feeling to nervous to call the police at 2am.
• Being congested while trying to fall asleep
• Realizing the object that I saw in the front yard was in fact a stump, not a wild animal
• Obsessing over seeing a sillouette of person in my window
• Finally falling asleep and then being woken up by the dogs at 4:30am.
• Falling back asleep and then realizing that I have to get up in an hour and a half to feed the dogs.
• Being so tired that I cannot function.
• Having to drive to work over caffeinated.
• Driving back to the house to let the dogs out on my lunch break and freaking out because its taking them forever.
• Neighbor dogs that distract betty and leo from doing their business
• People that are ungrateful and bossy.
• Bosses that tell you not to do this one thing and then you see that the one thing that you were not supposed to do is the very thing that they just did.

hymph

Monday is possibly the worst day ever!

I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-william ernest henley

I need to start taking control of my life. Things are not going to just happen. I do not live in a perfect world, a utopian society. I need to be the dragging force; the one who will make the change. I cannot expect people to do anything. They are not mind readers. If I want something done I must be proactive and get it done myself.

Put it on repeat.

I am a strong and confident woman.

there must be something in the air

Why do I feel as though there is something wrong with me. I haven't really kissed my boyfriend for like a week and a half and it is literally killing me. I know I am a part of it, but every time I try to go in my body pulls away. Just miss how things used to be. I know that I am clingy and occasionally stubborn (ok a lot) but its not like I want to sabotage things. Though in most cases I do set myself up for disaster (unknowingly) I just never had to worry about another person before (besides family and friends). Relationships are difficult, especially in a dating relationship. I feel like there is so much expected of me and I have no idea what it is. Maybe its because there shouldn't be any expectations. I don't like failing...I just want some guidance...

:/

Sometimes a kiss is all you need.

You take that away and a relationship will dwindle.

Without communication a relationship will diminish.