feeling grannyish

I am back to wearing the dreaded shower cap to bed. No there are no curlers...or hair dye under this plastic head shield. i wish! Its time for the fluocolone medication for my curse which is psoriasis. The doctor also prescribed a super expensive creme to cover my scalp... Better work. I can't be on nadalol anymore either because blood pressure meds affect psoriasis negatively. Now I'm on a water pill which causes me to pee a lot. Yay....better buy some depends! I hope they have small because i can't fit much in these skinny jeans.

attack the erika

I feel like my body is against me (or telling me something) . I have had my share of ups and downs in regard to my health. Feeling more and more like an old lady. I gave up dairy and gluten to see if my acid reflux coming back had anything to do with those items. Nope. My body is sensitive to dairy but not enough to affect the good ole acid from invading my throat. A few weeks later my psoriasis flares up so bad that you couldn't even see my scalp. Layers upon layers of me. yuck. My sis had to flood my scalp with mediceutical oils and then peel away the patches. I got a viral infection which kept me inside the house for a week and a half. If things couldn't have gotten worse my voice leaves.....now people think I have smokers voice. Great. Attractive. Tomorrow I see the doctor...but I'm tired of pills.....no more doping the Erika. .

I do wish I didn't have to be on meds...i wish I had my 24 year old body...i could eat anything: spicy or sweet. Now I have to worry about the amount of chilli...how fattening it is....salt. Ugh, I am my father. Its too early to feel this old.

all about surroundings

If you surround yourself with stupid people you are bound to do something stupid.

It might be the lifetime movies that saved me from carelessness. I guess you will learn from watching other people make mistakes. Well I did at least. But then again I was too scared of disappointing my parents (mostly my dad). I dreaded the words "you should have known better"... And I still do.

Now I am a hermit...nothing will affect me unless I let them in. Should I let them in? I guess without social communication one will just become a jello blob. (pop rocks). We need to be affected in some way. We need to make a leap...if we make a mistake we adapt. We fix ourselves so we don't make the mistake again.

We don't lie...because we start to believe that the lie is the reality. Just be honest. This world needs people that have integrity.